If you’ve been checking out my blog for a little while you’d see that I’m not someone who posts on a schedule. I’ve tried a couple of different ways to get myself to post at least once a week (In my twenties Tuesdays and Mocha Fridays) all with good intentions about stuff I really wanted to write about (and I’ve had some good mochas recently!!)
But I just have no self discipline to stick to a schedule, especially when I feel completely uninspired to write, or when life gets busy. I’m not the most intriguing writer to begin with (see last post, I know I could have done better on that race recap!) but I really enjoy blogging and sharing my life, my training (or lack of training!) and my random thoughts with my friends.
I’m pretty even keel on just about everything, while I have interests I’m passionate about (crossfit, running, video, art, politics) I never reach a point of even mild obsession which is why I don’t relate to people who focus so much on any one interest. People laugh when I say that I’m lazy or that I’m not dedicated, but I honestly feel that way most of the time. I go through phases, I’ll make a goal, I’ll be super psyched for the goal, I’ll tell myself that this is it, I’m dedicating myself 100% to said goal, and then I find myself two weeks later saying,”meh, that’s kind of stupid there’s more to life than_____” (sub 1:30, lifting big weight overhead, getting into political arguments etc). I maintain that I do what I want when I want to and I’m rarely terribly dissatisfied with my efforts (though my biggest disappointment right now is my mobility training) and I just keep on keeping on. I’ve become a better me through a lot of things I’ve done by putting myself out there and continued improvement is a wonderful thing, but sometimes I just get tired.
And with the tired feeling and with the fact that I have a super great job, I’m wondering where my blog is going to fit in.
On set the other day.
I have these intentions to write about certain things that I love and I have specific topics but the work behind it can make me feel bogged down. I also want to write about my job because what I’m doing and the company I’m working for is pretty amazing.
The intention of this specific blog post is to just say, I’m here, I’m thinking up ideas, I have a bunch of stuff to write about but wish writing didn’t feel like work. I wish it came to me more easily. And I guess that was another reason why I started blogging to begin with, to become better at writing to become more comfortable putting words to screen. The writing brain is just like a muscle, the more you use it, the stronger it gets. Looking back at my posts from when I first started my posterous blog (which moved to tumblr, which moved here) I can see that I’ve become more comfortable with writing, though not always better at it. I will definitely not be making any big goals about writing here more often, but I will be checking in and writing sometimes a lot (like I did during crossfit games) and sometimes very little (potentially while I take 6 months off from running after hood to coast).
What are your thoughts on your dedication, especially when it comes to blogging?