I’ll call it the “light at the end of the tunnel” syndrome, or LATEOTTS. Everyone on the web (including me) is all “WOOT WOOT see ya later 2012, here I come 2013!!!” and that’s awesome and great, but ugh, everything leading up to this first day back to work made me feel like my 2012 wasn’t quite over.
I want to be starting anew right now, to feel like I have a fresh start, but when problems didn’t magically go away at the strike of midnight on 2012, the first couple of days of 2013 feel a bit lackluster. I dreaded coming back down to California, not because I hate my current job, but because it makes me feel anxious. I knew I would be in meetings that would assign me more work that needs to be done before I leave. I really like the people I work with and I want to leave having said, for what it was worth, I did a good job. There were ups and downs to today and by the end, after being awake since 4:30am I was really ready to be done. But there is a light at the end of this tunnel, and I just need to keep my head up, keep the eye on the prize, and get there.
There are so many great things are right around the corner.
- More time with my husband.
- The actual start of my new business.
- Trying to get pregnant
- Training for a half marathon.
- Completing my longest trail race to date.
- More CrossFit
- More time to be creative and go on small trips.
All these things are going to be mine so very soon, but I first have to see my way out of my current work schedule and be successful on the projects that are not yet finished. CrossFit and running are a welcome distraction to get my mind off deadlines, re-shoots, and projects currently on the back burner, but I know giving them much more effort than just showing up is not really possible in the month of January. But what’s one month? Delayed gratification is a big part of life. It’s something I need to embrace, because while it will be a sad day when I leave my office for the last time, the freedom of the unknown will be waiting.